Episode Transcript
<p><!--block-->Alara Sage (00:04.014)<br>Hello, hello, and welcome to another episode of the Ecstatic Woman podcast. This is where we inspire and activate women and their radiance and their liveness. And I'm your host, Laura Sage. I'm the Ecstatic Life mentor, and I really help women to unlock, to activate their unique brilliance, to increase their magnetism and their power and to embody.<br><br>themselves in this reality as a human.<br><br>Alara Sage (00:40.13)<br>This is a solo episode. I like to bring my experiences through for you to connect to. And oftentimes, I am drawn to pick stories and experiences that are relatable.<br><br>But today I feel drawn to share something that perhaps is not as relatable, though I'm sure some people will relate to it. But still to share it. And.<br><br>Offer.<br><br>some wisdom through the experience that I had.<br><br>Alara Sage (01:24.59)<br>So this episode is about my communion with God.<br><br>Alara Sage (01:35.274)<br>I was raised Catholic. I went to Sunday school. And in all just pure transparency and honesty, it never resonated with me.<br><br>Alara Sage (01:50.186)<br>just what I was hearing and what was being taught to me never resonated. I never felt drawn to it. I just didn't feel it to be truth in my body. Now, I'll perface all of this with the understanding that I have nothing against religion. And I'm not saying it's right or wrong, good or bad. I am just sharing my experience and what I feel in my body.<br><br>Alara Sage (02:20.458)<br>Later in life, in my teens and early 20s, I would have called myself agnostic. I just didn't really believe in anything. And then as I started to enter into my later 20s and into my 30s, I started to connect to a sense that there was a bigger picture.<br><br>But I never thought of it as God. It just, for me, felt like the universe. And I absolutely could connect to the fact that there was an intelligence there and that there was magic, right? But I didn't think of this God-like persona. So then I started to have my spiritual awakening and went very heavy into spirituality.<br><br>And it really resonated with the understanding of source and love and consciousness. And then even at one point, I started to bring the word God in more to detrigger it for myself. I had, you know, felt this energetic vibration as a signature that goes along with a lot of words.<br><br>And so whether that's what the word is really trying to describe and define or not, it carries this energy with it. And this is just something that happens through humans using it, misusing it, misinterpreting it, all the different ways that we use language, right? And so God was one of those words to me, carried a heavy charge. And I just wanted to like neutralize that. So I started to like,<br><br>bring it into my awareness and connect the word God with source, with love, with consciousness. And I really neutralized the energy behind it. And that being said, I still didn't see God as how I would perceive religion to see it. I saw it as consciousness. And that was many years before this whole experience happened for me.<br><br>Alara Sage (04:39.29)<br>And as I happens to me, I have a lot of like a spontaneous experiences and they're very, very profound. And in the moment, I really understand what's going on to the best of my ability. And afterwards, I'm really shown how they unraveled parts of myself. So spontaneously,<br><br>Alara Sage (05:08.906)<br>One day, God came to me. And it absolutely wasn't a being or it wasn't visual at all. It was a presence. I was in meditation. And all of a sudden, this energy, this presence, came in and came into my body and just brought so much<br><br>love, I immediately started balling with love.<br><br>And I felt so hell.<br><br>and accepted and undeniably, unconditionally, loved.<br><br>And in that moment, I just let go. And I cried, and I cried, and I let my shoulders kind of quake with sobs. And I let the tears fall. And I just surrendered into this being held, like I was wrapped in these arms, but that the energy of those arms went through my entire body. It inhabited every single.<br><br>Alara Sage (06:29.919)<br>Sal in every single atom.<br><br>And I felt like I could just let go of everything. And I just remember releasing and sobbing and sobbing.<br><br>All of these different energies, memories and traumas and things coming through very, very quickly coming and being released out of my body. And in all of them, I felt so accepted and loved. And there was a communication happening in this space and it was like nothing I'd ever experienced. I've connected to a lot of angels.<br><br>connected to a lot of beings, connected to archangels, very big energetic presences. This was completely different. And it truly was a communion with God.<br><br>Alara Sage (07:34.835)<br>And it wasn't just that moment.<br><br>I was held in this vibration for several months and...<br><br>Alara Sage (07:51.598)<br>It was the first time in my life that I felt that I didn't need anything. I didn't want anything. I could have just simply sat in that space forever.<br><br>Alara Sage (08:13.514)<br>And it was as if.<br><br>Alara Sage (08:18.258)<br>that was known, obviously, even as I say that it's like, well, of course, it was known by consciousness itself. And therefore, I was moved in and out of these containers out of these, these deep spaces, like, okay, go eat, you know, go, go take care of your human.<br><br>Alara Sage (08:47.916)<br>Right now I get really, really emotional because the truth of it was is...<br><br>Alara Sage (08:56.659)<br>I didn't really want to.<br><br>I didn't really want to take care of my human at that point. I just wanted to sit in this love.<br><br>Alara Sage (09:10.23)<br>But I did take care of my human. There was no part of neglect whatsoever. Because simultaneously, while I didn't want to, I'd also felt deeply honoring of God to take care of me. So I did.<br><br>Alara Sage (09:33.954)<br>There was this incredible piece.<br><br>It was just in a pure state of peace.<br><br>Alara Sage (09:43.69)<br>And I created some content while I was in this space and it was very challenging to speak, you know, when we're in these deep, dissolved spaces, it can be very challenging to speak.<br><br>But I felt very called to bring forth this vibration.<br><br>such a powerful resonance in my body. So I would get onto these platforms and I would.<br><br>stare into the camera.<br><br>Alara Sage (10:22.398)<br>kind of wait for my mouth to move.<br><br>Alara Sage (10:30.827)<br>And it would.<br><br>Alara Sage (10:37.754)<br>And I was with my partner that I'm with now, Danny, at the time. And all of my sexual energy was just gone.<br><br>Alara Sage (10:51.006)<br>It was all gone. There was just this pure saturation of...<br><br>love and acceptance.<br><br>Alara Sage (11:03.818)<br>and stillness, absolute stillness.<br><br>Alara Sage (11:12.126)<br>And that was really the teaching that I got from it.<br><br>Alara Sage (11:18.326)<br>I would just be sitting there immersed in this vibration, usually just crying with love, just such an opened heart cry of gratitude. And I remember thinking, I see you, I feel you, I see you, I feel you, I am you, I am you, I am you, I see you, I feel you.<br><br>Alara Sage (11:47.882)<br>You know, it's like when you're submerged in water.<br><br>Alara Sage (11:55.79)<br>It's hard to know where you stop and where you begin, right? That's how I felt, I felt just.<br><br>this absolute oneness and stillness. And that stillness was where the action didn't want to arise.<br><br>Alara Sage (12:19.21)<br>No action wanted to be taken. Nothing wanted to be created.<br><br>Alara Sage (12:29.002)<br>And I've shown how the breath.<br><br>helps us to connect to this. My breath helps us to connect to God within us. It's this paradox.<br><br>Alara Sage (12:47.342)<br>because consciousness is paradox.<br><br>Alara Sage (12:53.954)<br>When you understand that, you can continuously see God through paradox. It's very beautiful.<br><br>And I was shown this paradox with the breath, how stillness exists within the movement of the breath.<br><br>Alara Sage (13:12.322)<br>And I would just sit there and feel my breath, very relaxed breath. I would just feel it move in and out of my body. And I would feel the stillness, the beingness, the isness that the breath moved because of.<br><br>Alara Sage (13:36.278)<br>It was because of the stillness that the breath had movement.<br><br>Alara Sage (13:49.554)<br>I didn't know what was gonna happen.<br><br>I didn't know if I would desire anything again.<br><br>Alara Sage (14:00.618)<br>I was so fulfilled.<br><br>Alara Sage (14:05.918)<br>I didn't know if I would ever create. I didn't know if I was gonna show back up for my partner.<br><br>I was trying to express to him what was happening and he was trying to understand.<br><br>And at one point, I remember telling him, I just don't even know if I can partake in partnership right now, I feel completely and utterly whole and complete and satiated in this aloneness with God. I don't know if I desire my business. I don't know if anything wants to happen.<br><br>Alara Sage (14:46.914)<br>And there was no judgment from him, and there was no judgment of myself. I mean, there was just no room for judgment. It was pure love.<br><br>It was just, I don't know. I don't know what's gonna happen.<br><br>Alara Sage (15:12.474)<br>Just keep moving on out of these really deep states of communion The whole thing was communion. Like I said, it lasted several months Probably two and a half three months But there was these really deep states of it where I would sit down and just get pulled into it<br><br>Alara Sage (15:34.786)<br>and just be in this.<br><br>vibrations of light and love that was just...<br><br>Alara Sage (15:48.619)<br>almost felt like my body couldn't handle it.<br><br>Alara Sage (15:56.114)<br>I would just follow my breath and relax the body and just let my body feel the immensity of it. I remember sometimes my body would almost say, it's too much, it's too much. But as soon as I would start to even feel that I would just, it's okay, it's okay, it's okay, it's okay.<br><br>Just make sure to soften even more. Make sure to relax even more. And my body would listen and.<br><br>I never hit this point of too much even though it was a tremendous amount of love. It's such a hard thing to describe.<br><br>Alara Sage (16:50.058)<br>It definitely elicits the emotion of love that we humans understand intellectually. But the true vibration of love, which is one of the primary factors of consciousness, consciousness is awareness, love, light, sat, cheat, ananda. That pure love is not an emotion.<br><br>Alara Sage (17:20.778)<br>It's this incredible vibration of light that is so... I mean, it's everything. It's acceptance, it's expansion. It is expansion, it's expanded. It's truth, it's...<br><br>Alara Sage (17:42.13)<br>oneness it's just really hard to describe<br><br>It's like the most delicious feeling in the body ever.<br><br>Alara Sage (18:00.59)<br>It's so beautiful right now in this moment as I'm sharing this with you. My body is remembering and it is lighting up.<br><br>and this vibration of love.<br><br>Alara Sage (18:19.891)<br>I had felt this love before.<br><br>Alara Sage (18:35.782)<br>I had experienced this love come in.<br><br>Alara Sage (18:43.85)<br>just consume me. I had experienced this love before, but the communion was different. There was a oneness with it. There was a<br><br>Alara Sage (19:00.554)<br>communion with God. I mean, a communion is a coming together, right? It's a union of<br><br>Alara Sage (19:20.642)<br>There was one point during this experience where...<br><br>Alara Sage (19:27.894)<br>God was teaching me about singularity.<br><br>Because God, consciousness, love in this context, true love is everything. There is nothing that exists outside of love. Sin itself does not exist outside of love. Evil does not exist outside of love. Everything is awareness, love light, all that exists in creation is awareness, love light.<br><br>Alara Sage (20:02.814)<br>And I was being shown this and I was being taught it at a very cellular and experiential level.<br><br>Alara Sage (20:13.598)<br>And there is one point where...<br><br>I was being held in this love and all of a sudden, God brought in this immense hatred into my body. I could feel it.<br><br>like a train roaring through me.<br><br>Alara Sage (20:39.702)<br>It was so intense. And I knew it wasn't my hatred. Not to say that I haven't experienced hatred, not to say I didn't have any then. But I knew that in that moment, it wasn't mine. And I was just told to surrender to it, surrender to it, allow it, allow it, allow it. Because we tend to want to push those things away. We tend to want to contract against them. We don't feel safe.<br><br>Alara Sage (21:10.59)<br>So I was breathing in the body and again just willing my body to relax into it.<br><br>Alara Sage (21:20.318)<br>allowing myself to feel immense hatred.<br><br>Alara Sage (21:29.022)<br>I don't know how long it lasted. Seemed like a very long time, but most likely it wasn't. And then all of a sudden, there was this seed of light in my mind's eye. And it just grew, and it kind of exploded. And in the minute that it exploded, I felt this immense love.<br><br>Alara Sage (21:59.262)<br>And I realized that they were the exact same.<br><br>Alara Sage (22:07.35)<br>they were the exact same vibration.<br><br>Alara Sage (22:13.834)<br>I don't know if you can understand that. And I don't know how much more I can explain of it. It was extremely experiential.<br><br>Alara Sage (22:25.794)<br>but polarity, duality.<br><br>Alara Sage (22:31.978)<br>is all the expression of oneness.<br><br>Alara Sage (22:36.614)<br>Love and hate in the emotions of humanity are the same coin. Pain and pleasure is the same coin, just opposite sides.<br><br>opposite sides of the same spectrum. And when they collide, God is revealed. When they meet, God is revealed.<br><br>Alara Sage (23:03.638)<br>God is revealed when hate meets love. God is revealed when pain meets pleasure.<br><br>Alara Sage (23:22.146)<br>I'll never forget that moment. I'll never forget that sensation. I'll never forget that teaching.<br><br>Alara Sage (23:35.294)<br>Already at that time, I had come into an understanding of the perfection of all perfection of what is. I could see everything in perfection and not in this perfectionism. But that it's perfect is perfect in the way that is showing up because it is love expressing itself to us.<br><br>through the many different fractals that is consciousness.<br><br>when we're able to see that we see it as love and therefore we experience it as love and<br><br>Alara Sage (24:22.058)<br>I don't know how much of this you understand and.<br><br>Alara Sage (24:29.114)<br>I bring it forth for you to feel in your body.<br><br>Alara Sage (24:37.686)<br>you understand it as a being of love.<br><br>Alara Sage (24:44.978)<br>If you just surrender the mind, you will resonate with these words if you're not already.<br><br>And if you have to come back and listen to this again, then do so.<br><br>Alara Sage (25:02.542)<br>These things are not conceptual.<br><br>There's so much more than our human mind can comprehend and explain. Just do my best here to explain.<br><br>and do my best to describe the words from my heart in hopes that you can feel them.<br><br>Alara Sage (25:33.674)<br>We all have this capacity.<br><br>commune in this way.<br><br>We all have this capacity to remember.<br><br>Alara Sage (25:50.462)<br>And it's when we remember that we allow that love through. We don't have to fear hate anymore. We don't have to fear pain anymore. We don't have to fear evil anymore.<br><br>Alara Sage (26:07.298)<br>And that's really powerful.<br><br>Alara Sage (26:25.35)<br>After that experience, much like my Kundalini awakening, there was an unraveling that occurred.<br><br>Alara Sage (26:39.09)<br>That's not always easy to go through.<br><br>Alara Sage (26:45.806)<br>I feel so emotional right now, just connecting to the experience again because<br><br>Alara Sage (26:53.592)<br>I see how...<br><br>Alara Sage (26:58.786)<br>I've been gifted so much love, so much love. And then taken through.<br><br>Alara Sage (27:08.238)<br>the depths.<br><br>Alara Sage (27:11.934)<br>of my own suffering and the suffering of the world.<br><br>Alara Sage (27:27.222)<br>I'm so grateful for all those times. I'm so grateful for my Kundalini awakening that shot ecstasy through my body so that I was able to move through.<br><br>Alara Sage (27:43.202)<br>Five months of just chaos, emotional chaos.<br><br>Alara Sage (27:49.99)<br>anchored in this experience that I'd had.<br><br>And again with this communion with God.<br><br>Alara Sage (28:06.174)<br>I knew it wouldn't be forever. I knew, I knew very much in my being that.<br><br>Alara Sage (28:16.435)<br>it would go away.<br><br>Alara Sage (28:22.987)<br>And it did.<br><br>It wasn't like a radical pull away. There was like a moving out of my space. And then an unraveling.<br><br>Alara Sage (28:47.63)<br>But I didn't forget it. And I didn't forget the teachings that I was taught through that time period. I just can't when they're so experiential. They're just embedded vibrationally into my body. I mean, it's very obvious to me as I speak to them now, and my body is so lit with emotion and sensation that they've never left me, and they never will.<br><br>And I don't know whether I'll ever commune with God again. But I do know.<br><br>Alara Sage (29:32.19)<br>I do know that oneness is real. I do know that God in the context of consciousness, of love, is real.<br><br>And even though there's been an experience of pulling away, I tap in all the time. There's, I'm never really, it's never really gone. It's never really away, right? Like, I hope that translates where my communion ended, however, my connection, my presence, my availability to love did not.<br><br>and it has.<br><br>Alara Sage (30:20.586)<br>continue to unravel the.<br><br>Alara Sage (30:27.374)<br>Programming, the bullshit, the arrogance.<br><br>ego, the false and limiting beliefs that I have carried, unraveling it to expose more of its purity within me.<br><br>Alara Sage (30:52.958)<br>I hope this story translated well. I hope you felt me. I hope you felt my experience. I hope.<br><br>Alara Sage (31:05.442)<br>that this resonated truth in your being.<br><br>Alara Sage (31:19.326)<br>As always, I recommend, I not recommend, I invite you. I invite you, I invite you, my love.<br><br>Send me an email, info at Alarisage.com. Tell me what came up for you during this conversation. I would love to hear or join the Facebook group, Ecstatic Woman podcast and share your experience there.<br><br>I so love these moments. It feels very intimate with you. And I greatly appreciate you listening and being here and being you<br><br>You are so loved, so absolutely loved and cherished by me.<br><br>Alara Sage (32:15.714)<br>Thank you my love.<br><br><br></p>
